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The person believes they are focused on studying, but they often deceive themselves into thinking that life is just about studying. They realize that there are two types of learning: utilitarian learning and learning for inner peace. They question why they are studying and conclude that it is for their inner self. However, they feel trapped in the material world and believe that only utilitarian learning can lead to achieving inner peace. They understand that their soul desires connection with the world, but their body is confined to school. They believe that only by acquiring utilitarian knowledge can they ultimately reach the place their soul longs for. They mention the concept of heaven and hell being created by one's thoughts.